He’s not gone
He’s always there
He’s looking down on you
He’s your guiding star

But it’s not true
I watched him die
I fought for him but this battle I didn’t win

My training kicked in and I did what I knew
But it wasn’t enough.
I ordered them to stop when it had gone on too long.

Later, she said, I had killed him and I knew she was right.
So yes I am angry and my words will offend
Those kind people who are trying to help

But you see I killed him so if he is there he hates me now.